[<<][dharma][>>][..]

Fri Apr 20 10:44:07 EDT 2012

Sneezes

The "mental sneezes" keep happening.  I'm starting to really wonder
what they are.  I don't think they are fruitions, since there is no
sense of completion.  Yesterday I went from suffering to letting go at
some point and that's when one of these things happened again.  Two
days ago the same.  It feels like something is about to happen, just
like a sneeze coming op, followed by a muscular contraction (eyes,
face, neck, sholders).  Not very pleasant and kind of freaky.  They
don't really feel like a discontinuity either: things are pretty much
like before, though it does interrupt things: the experience of the
sneeze itself is like an ordinary sneeze: an uncontrollable
contraction, a bit painful, followed by a relief of the tension from
the buildup.

This could also match A&P events, but so many?  Why didn't I get them
before?

Unlikely, but if they are fruitions then it means I'm cycling, which
could explain some of the ups & downs.  I went from very unhappy to
smiling contently about 10 minutes ago.

[Reply][About]

[<<][dharma][>>][..]