[<<][dharma][>>][..]Sun Mar 4 21:07:30 EST 2012
I think I had a bit of a hangover. The tiredness at around 8pm gave a
very nice sit though, I think more of a concentration feel. The
thinking part is kind of numb from the slight hangover and
concentration-work today, so this makes it easier to just let thoughts
go; they seem to be only fragments. Might try some meditation when
really tired. Though I already noticed that tired + disgruntled about
stil being up is a hard combination to crack.
I'm attempting to focus more on the background, the watcher. Space
has become more apparent. The whole sensate field feels more
coherent. A strange impression arises that "I've seen all this
before". Especially when I was a kid, say 9-10 y/o, watching the
clock at my grandma's while lying down on the couch.
My early day however was soaked in resentment. Hard to be mindful
when reality hits you in the face with too many things at once. That
particular feeling of being overwhelmed seems to be triggering the
spiral a lot. Might be good to train to catch it. My impression was
that the early part of the hangover decreased awareness and launches
you straight into storyland.
Overall from these 2 days of consuming alcohol I had quite a bad
experience, mostly from the day after. The only thing good, really
was the initial ramp-up on the first night.