Wed Jan 11 13:16:42 EST 2012
It's becoming more clear to me that my fear is hidden deep down.
I've seen sadness a lot the last couple of sessions: only very brief,
half a second but intense shots of sadness that lead to the facial
expressions that arise during crying.
Today I got through the resistance mentioned in the previous entry,
arriving at a point of calm but with an insistent contraction in my
stomach. After more consciously looking at that following a "show
yourself" intent, that feeling went away after exposing itself more
clearly as fear. Fear of many [stuff] things currently in the air
that have possible but unlikely undesirable outcomes.