Wed Jan 4 11:04:28 EST 2012
Letting go of love
A strange experience yesterday, related to love. Following the
instruction "observe, let go" I did this when a feeling of love arose.
First, love has never been so radiant and clear to me as in recent
times, doing this kind of observation and "letting it in".
However, when it arose and I let it go in full awareness, not clinging
to it, a great, deep, lasting equanimity arose. Observed this for a
while, with my eyes open (usually I have trouble with open eyes).
Then I started feeling attachment to this equanimity which I don't
think really ever went away. After the bell this prolonged for a bit
until I fell asleep.
After that woke up with fear as I had throughout most of the day
yesterday. Also this morning: uneasiness, a bit of panic, and more
worry about the dog after new developments.
[stuff] [interpretaion] It's kind of new to me to feel this feeling of
love so directly for a dog, but yes, I experienced it and it was
beautiful. Maybe it is about accepting the possibilities of it being
hurt, i.e. the dog dying.