Fri Dec 16 17:31:49 EST 2011
It's starting to get frustrated. I'm having a lot of trouble getting
to focus through the day. When I sit down, I usually feel better.
The jitteryness usually doesn't stay. If it stays, it can get more
intense. Yesterday, first 30 minutes evening meditation was like
that. I was getting distracted and frustrated with the dog's noises.
Tried to focus on that feeling but it got quite strong and in my face,
not really possible to observe it without it swamping me.
Today after work I felt unconfortably bored. Sat down, and got into
some samatha feel-good state. Felt a strong feeling of satisfaction
and clinging. A "finally! sedation!".